C is for Chunni

bye blogger.

2010-01-17T03:09:00.000-08:00

I'm walking away, from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away, oh to find a better day..

I'm moving to my p lj.
so, byebye :)

2010-01-08T05:16:00.000-08:00

So many familiar faces walking past me,
Yet all seem like complete strangers.

Secondary 4 is a year of isolation.
A year where only studies matter.
Really, nothing else.

You know what,
i'm too lazy to even bother about you anymore.

2010..

2009-12-30T05:35:00.003-08:00

Before 2009 finally comes to an end,
and get too excited to celebrate for 2010..

10 words to describe 2009:
struggle. intense. leadership. packed. meaningful. a year i grow. incredible.

10 kinds of people i don't like..
1) stubborn asshole.
2) people who always question my actions.
3) people who p-e-s-t-e-r me.
4) sticky or clingy friends.
5, 6) stalker. hypocrites and jealous freak
7) people who say bad things about me

and like..
8) sony ericsson headphone.
9) book, books and books!
10) $$$

10 reasons why 2010 will be a better year..
1) i will do awesome for o levels.
2) i will be a better friend,
3) a better ~~man~~ woman and
4) an obedient daughter.
5) the start of a new decade
6) the world will end in 2 years later
7) twenty ten sounds nicer than twenty oh nine :P
8) valentines' day falls on new year (actually it sucks)
9) i can step down from cca

And nevertheless, 10A1s!

boo-hoo

2009-12-20T04:19:00.000-08:00

shopping with almas on tuesday was boomz.
and she gave me xmas pressie :)

i don't school to start.
i don't want to be sec 4.
isolated at that second floor corner,
studying and be chiongster :(
dang it (thumbs down)

taylor-taylor

2009-12-17T05:00:00.000-08:00

are taylor swift and taylor lautner dating??
it seems so, as seen from the discussions on the net.
but omigod, taylor lautner is so hot! (gasp)

i personally felt that taylor lautner is too young for taylor swift.
but they do look quite, cute together?

2009-12-10T04:50:00.000-08:00

awwww i'll be away for camp from this fri to next mon.
don't miss me yeah :)

new moon

2009-12-09T05:53:00.000-08:00

i finally watched new moon today.
i'm sooooo relieved that it wasn't as disappointing as twilight was.
but just a little upset that edward appeared in too little scenes :(

and studying alone in the library is AWESOME (:

"Before you, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars - points of light and reason... And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars any more. And there was no more reason for anything.

friends or family?

2009-12-07T06:35:00.000-08:00

if i gave you a choice between your family and friends,
who would you choose?

most teens would choose the latter, no joke.
in fact to them, friends are everything.
but not this case for me (:

suffocating

2009-12-06T02:48:00.000-08:00

What am i working so hard for?
Yeah those things will pay off someday, i know.
But give me a break please?

"Do you know what's worth fighting for?
When it's not worth dying for?
Does it take your breath away
And you feel yourself suffocating?"

rawr

2009-12-03T03:54:00.000-08:00

omigod!
i never received my edusave scholarship letter!?
which means i'm not gettingggg.
this year the amount has increased to 400 dollars manzx.
shingz this sucks ttm :(

okok, chunni is not going to self-praise again.
and oh, new moon is out alrrrrr >.<

3 things

2009-11-28T04:42:00.000-08:00

1) i am thinking of taking up a spanish course soon (this dec or jan)
who wanna join me? :)

2) i wanna watch 2012 and new moon.
who wanna ask me out? :D

3) i wanna study.
who wanna go pair study with me?

fifteen

2009-11-27T01:15:00.000-08:00

"'Cause when you're fifteen and somebody tells you they love you
You're gonna believe them
And when you're fifteen, don't forget to look before you fall
I've found time can heal almost anything
And you just might find who you're supposed to be."

I gotta believe them, at fifteen.

don't

2009-11-21T06:16:00.000-08:00

find your reason of living.
not for her or him.
but for you, your family and your people.

you can't force what's not yours to stay.
sometimes, some things just don't belong to you.
if you snatch those things away from the rightful owner,
you'll pay the price, definitely.

don't be stubborn.
it will get you nowhere.
you'll never win God.

"things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they are right.
good things fall apart so better things can fall together."

tie that binds

2009-11-18T05:47:00.000-08:00

I went for my sissie's graduation ceremony yesterday.
As they walked down the aisle to their seats,
I can see pride, anticipation and hope in their eyes.
They have proudly completed their secondary studies and
ready to proceed to the next altitude, for a higher purpose.

It will be my turn in a year's time.
I would definitely miss and reluctant to leave commonwealth.
For this is where i had great, fond memories.
Where i aspire and grow, and become who i am today.

"As we go on, we remember all the times we had together.
And as our lives change from whatever,
We will still be friends forever."

shoo!

2009-11-17T01:17:00.000-08:00

Guys are contradictory animals.
They go around calling others flirt, hongster, whatever.
But they failed to realise they are one big shit themselves.
They assume they are great, powerful and awesome.
But they are utterly, completely wrong.

And you, stop acting like some noble freak.
You don’t like her!
You are only trying to prove something.
I don’t know what, only you know.
Leave me alone!

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2009-11-17T00:47:00.000-08:00

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energy boost

2009-11-16T05:46:00.002-08:00

human tends to brag what they lack and
hide what they felt inferior of.

at the beginning of this year,
they call me confident.
but at the end,
they call me arrogant.

but, have you guys wondered,
if my arrogance is due to my inferiority?

when i was taking the train to pasir ris yesterday.
this lil girl rushed for a seat behind me,
she tripped and fell and scratched my leg.
so she sat on the seat and began crying.
her mom then came and pacified her.
though it hurts for both of us,
she could cry it out loud and no one could blame it on her.
but i can't, cos i'm a big girl.
and big girls don't cry, all the time.

to boomz

2009-11-12T06:13:00.000-08:00

birthday wish: i prayed with sincerity and compassion,
for today to end smoothly and tomorrow to be a fresh beginning (:

alwaney my love
you are my bestest friend.
we share thoughts, dreams and ambitions together.
you are my support, my pillar, the one i can ALWAYS depend on.
i love you, always and forever (L)

jasmine my all-nice girl
jasmine likes to criticise me.
tsktsk, no good.
don't ever underestimate your abilities or bring yourself down.
'cos you are far better than what you think you are.
(hehe sounds familiar yeah?)

iris louie ng
i'm in the fifteen club alr.
louie catch up!
you've been a great support this year,
encouraing and advising the little me.
love you :@

desmond my friend
it is your right to love someone.
but do you know your love has become a burden to me?
let today mark the end of your 553 days of feelings.
stop it please, let me go.
it's glad to see how you've changed.
study for your exams, achieve good results, quit smoking,
everything to become a better person.
that was great, really.
but don't do it for me, do it for yourself please.

it was really glad to have someone out there,
willing to protect, help and care for me.
but i only felt grateful towards you.
nothing much, nothing else.
there's nothing that can happen between us.
i know i'm being evil, cruel or even heartless,
but this is better for you, in the long run.

maybe after you have cleared your feelings and get over with everything,
we could finally talk like some real friends.
but before that, please leave me alone.
sorry, and thank you.

yizhao my dc
you gave me a lot promises
don't always think you've failed me or anything.
our friendship will continue to blossom :)

zhihan my bff
though we haven't been talking,
but hope our friendship will continue.
you're a friend i don't want to lose (:

j.lim my most caring friend
thanks for sending me songs and talking to me all the time
thanks for willing to share everything that you have.
you're a great friend (:

harry my noob friend
hey you're not a noob
thanks for always accompanying me through ups and downs. (:

to those who care:
my sissie, nicole, benita, jean, renjie, amirtha, alda, joshua, rebecca, kaixin, xinying, neil, qiuying, xiuzhen, azalea, juehao, shasha, zhiwei, jianghao, wanling and more.

15th'09
it was an eventful year.
smp, cmp, h1n1, triple science, clique, gg and everything.
a year of hardship, tears, joy, obstacles, breakdown, falling and standing up again.

next year will be a busier year.
a year of struggles to strive for excellence.
i will do boomz, i promise (:

last but not least, happy birthday to myself (L)

new perspective

2009-11-10T02:00:00.001-08:00

my mom taught me something today.
she said when we visit a doctor, we can only say "thank you" and not "bye bye".
hehe, 2 more days to my big day.

chinese paper was relatively easy.
peanuts, said my friend (:

"Don't wanna live a life that was comprehensible,
'Cos seeing clear would be a bad idea."

garden of eden

2009-11-06T05:33:00.000-08:00

bring me to the garden of eden, the paradise.

i was supposed to go to the doctor and proceed to school afterwards.
but i sat at the bus stop and waited 30 minutes in vain.
so i gave up and went to sheng shiong.

my wound isn't recovering as expected.
so i am turning down everything and stay at home obediently.
call me a good girl.
and good girls deserve good pressies *hint*

"No more poison killing my emotion,
I will not be frozen, dancing is my remedy.
Move, why you watching me dance with the enemy,
Here is my remedy."

low confidence

2009-11-01T04:27:00.000-08:00

my confidence bar's running low.
who's gonna help me recharge?

awesome pals(:

2009-10-29T01:30:00.000-07:00

"No more tears k chunni, cos you're stronger than u think you are."
"I know it hurts, but be brave."
"... no matter how you look in future. This i swear."

I will not forget all your care and concern and love. :)

a series of unfortunate events

2009-10-28T22:18:00.000-07:00

it was purely a wrong decision to turn up for school today.
my only intention of going was for phototaking.
however, not only didn't i manage to get my photo taken,
i got a cut that needed 7 stitches.

due to the fact that i cannot chew or bite now,
i can only survive with porridge and water :'(
oh yeah, i can't talk to.
so please do NOT call me.

P.S. the wound will leave a scar, later become ugly chunni :(

2009-10-28T07:05:00.000-07:00

I had a strong urge to terminate this blog.
It seems pretty meaningless now.

Anyway I went to see 2 doctors and got an injection.
My mom said the fever has burnt my brain.

at this moment of time, when I was most vulnerable
i could see clearer who are those who really care for me.
who will ask me to rest well, take care, drink more water etc.
but unfortunately, it was not you.

pictures of you, pictures of me

2009-10-24T21:15:00.000-07:00

pulau semakau is a beautiful island.
best is we get to go over-sea and escape from the hustle and bustle of the city.

bollywood :D

louie's eyes are bigger than mine, for once (;

these days filled with unadulterated joy and happiness.
will i get to experience these next year? or in the future?

sometimes i hope i'll never grow up..

2009-10-22T05:29:00.001-07:00

so the apparent fact is that i stay in sg to 'face the reality' instead of 'running away'.

surprisingly, my results were OK.

but they will never be satisfied.

no matter how well i do,

they'll only pick up those subjects that i did badly and give their long black faces.

sometimes i really get tired of explaining or promising them i will do better next time.

mom and dad, i want to score well myself.

i've tried very hard to live up to your expectations.

can't you see my efforts and struggles?

mom and dad, sometimes praises work better than scoldings.

mom and dad, i love you still.

and forgive me for those harsh words and cold stares.

omg omg omg

2009-10-20T07:19:00.001-07:00

OMG OMG my dad says he wanna bring me to Indonesia TOMORROW!

And if i agrees, he will order my ticket right now!

Should i say yes?

If so, I can escape from results, scolding, tears and everything!

Decide, chunni!

i'm dreading schooool

2009-10-20T07:05:00.000-07:00

Omg I'm dreading school tmrw :(

These 5 days were awesome.

No homework, no stress, nothing, nada.

But once school starts, and imagine getting back our papers?

Oh god, don't remind me.

you make me smile

2009-10-19T08:16:00.000-07:00

"You make me smile like the sun, fall out of bed
Sing like bird, dizzy in my head
Spin like a record, crazy on a Sunday night

You make me dance like a fool, forget how to breathe
Shine like gold, buzz like a bee
Just the thought of you can drive me wild
Oh, you make me smile"

When you are always grinning to yourself,
Or drawing hearts all around your diary,
Or go to bed thinking all about him,
You know, something is wrong :)

guy stat

2009-10-18T06:01:00.000-07:00

"87% of guys say they'd like a girl to ask them to prom." - Seventeen

Well, I'll wait for the remaining 13% :)

miss 60's

2009-10-16T06:35:00.000-07:00

it was a freezing cold morning today (:
went to school for a journalist workshop.
that guy was funny and we had fun.
but the sad thing was, we have to blog in chinese -.-

went over to alwani's house.
rented ghosts of my girlfriend's past,
and planned something real fabulous :)

''true friends are those you can walk together in silence,
yet not feeling awkward with each other''

gossip girls

2009-10-15T07:33:00.001-07:00

OMG i love my guides.
They are cute, awesome girls :D
And i got 3 great pals out there,
We can talk and laugh and gossip for hours (L)

2009-10-15T07:14:00.000-07:00

awesome, exams are over!
went with my darlings to lido to catch 500 days of summer.
i'm waiting my sister's keeper to be out next thursday.
who wanna watch with me? :D

"It is your personality, not your looks that counts. When you possess a dazzling personality, seriously, would your crooked nose, small eyes and the acne on your face matter that much?"

ignorance is bliss

2009-10-03T04:11:00.000-07:00

Not knowing is the best,
Cause the truth always hurt.

I feel vulnerable,
I'm afraid of their criticism.
Afraid of losing a friend.
Afraid of saying the wrong words.
Afraid of failing their expectations.

I always said those harsh words to keep them away,
But only realised how much i need them right here.

--

Okay to end this off with a good note,
I feeel happier after posting (:

boys over flowers

2009-09-29T04:55:00.000-07:00

Cause ~~you~~ I feel like a hypocrite.

happiness

2009-09-24T03:55:00.000-07:00

How to break your own heart versus
how to mend your broken heart.

"People strive for that perfect relationship, the perfect house, the beautiful body,
the approval of others, all in an attempt to be happy.
Sometimes these things make us happy;
other times, we stress over not having reached our goals,
or we reach them and find that we’re still not happy.
Other times, we focus so intensely on one goal that’s thought to bring happiness that we don’t have time for other things in our life that will make us truly happy. "
- http://stress.about.com/od/lowstresslifestyle/ss/happy.htm

you'll never lose out being nice

2009-09-21T04:35:00.000-07:00

"Be nice to people on your way up because you'll meet them on your way down."

It's never too stupid or too naive of you to treat others well.
'cos those who give their all,
will receive double in return.

"It's not true that nice guys finish last.
They are winners before the game even starts."

Those who told you not to treat others too well,
are those who lost faith in life.
but you don't have to be, one of them (:

15th YSC

2009-09-19T07:10:00.000-07:00

I declare that smp is finally and officially over!
Believe me, i can cry for joy now.

Anyway we have the 15th Youth Science Conference today.
Awesome ya?
I know, because of me (:

this feeling sucks

2009-09-15T04:47:00.000-07:00

this feeling totally sucks.
you don't understand how i feel.
the passion for this _____ is gone.
you found what you've been looking for,
and too eager to escape.
well i will be happy for you too (:

i am not being sarcastic.
i mean what i say,
or maybe not?

friend for benefits

2009-09-14T04:46:00.000-07:00

why some treat friends well only for the benefits they can get out from them?
why is my microsoft word not working?
why ain't i getting enough sleep?

anyway we got back the results for smp.
we got merit (:
be contented, chunni.

hey guys

2009-09-08T06:51:00.000-07:00

I have my smp judging tomorrow.
so guys, wish me good luck (:

they are the bad guys,
pretending to be kind.
so don't be an idiot,
and feel sorry for them!

2009-09-07T06:02:00.000-07:00

Life was busy.
Had our POP camp last friday and saturday.
Awesome indeed.
Hope my juniors will do the same for us next year (hint)

Had CIP yesterday.
Others probably think we are some mad kids.
Cheering beside the road.
Nonetheless it was fun :D

Had heritage trail tomorrow and SMP judging on wed.
Hope everything goes fine (:

2009-09-03T08:09:00.000-07:00

Hidden benealth the indifference and I'm fine's
Is hatred, lies and tears.

Can you see the pain living in my eyes,
And know how hard I've tried?

If you miss me, then let me know.
And if it is so, then hold me close.

shoot

2009-09-03T07:14:00.000-07:00

I want to scream and yell and whine and cry luh.
Life's not fair!
Yeah I am the CL,
So I will know EVERYTHINGG is it?!
Am i so important that nothing can carry out smoothly without my presence?
Or are this pure excuses?
Yeah i am in Science Mentorship,
But do I have face the computer most nights and negelct my studies?

I am NOT a superwoman.
Don't forget I am like you guys.
Human with only two hands and one brain.

2009-08-31T02:10:00.000-07:00

On this day of your life, Chunni, we believe God wants you to know...
... that you cannot wait anymore.

The moment has finally come. You have no choice.
You have to take that step now. Now. Not tomorrow, not in an hour, - Now!
If anyone else is reading this, they would be confused.
But not you. You know exactly what we mean. Do it. Now.

No i will wait, and see how things go.

last night was a good good night

2009-08-30T06:14:00.000-07:00

asean dance was fabulous!
but what remained was just memories, pictures and roses.

and i don't wanna wear contacts anymore.
cos i don't look nice in photos :P

it was just too sweet.
but when the night is over,
i have to come back to reality.

i don't deny it.
i really had an impulse to do something that i shouln't.
was i just being a substitution?
if that was the case,
i am really disappointed in you.

facade

2009-08-29T08:55:00.000-07:00

What price are you willing to pay,
To be beautiful for just one day?

the sky cries

2009-08-26T05:24:00.000-07:00

"If you look inside a girl's heart,
You'd see how much she really cries,
You'll find hidden secrets,
Best friends,
And even lies,
But what you'll see the most is
How hard it is to stay strong when
Nothing's right and everything's wrong."

asean dance!

2009-08-25T05:03:00.000-07:00

I'm looking forward for this week to be over.
And asean dance to come! :D

It's not wise thing to miss Mrs Philip's lessons.
I am a little lost in lesson today.
And Mrs Ng told me I was daydreaming in class :/

If the future seems overwhelming,
Remember that it comes one moment at a time..

2009-08-19T08:07:00.000-07:00

It's 11.07pm.
I haven't started with any homework yet :/

one step at a time

2009-08-19T06:29:00.000-07:00

There's always too many things and,
Too little time.

It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow,

I can't believe that I stayed till today.

never say never

2009-08-17T05:05:00.000-07:00

I hate shallow kids.
When will some people stop drooling over pretty girls and get a life?
Oh grow up!

Happy birthday HAN.NAH! :D

2009-08-15T20:49:00.000-07:00

Omg i finally fixed my internet!
Phewwwwwww.
But this is not a good sign yeah.
Anyway I dreamt that i got 5 marks for my english CT,
And got a lecture from ms jane :(

2009-08-10T04:45:00.000-07:00

Sorry guys, I have some internet problem
Hence I won't be updating my blog these days.
Miss me not(:

2009-07-28T04:48:00.000-07:00

Just rest for a moment. It's OK.
Yes, things are crazy, yes, the world is going nuts.
Yet, deep underneath the stormy waves, there, in the core of your being,
There is pure silence, pure love.
And ... it's ... just ... OK.
-Facebook

Pure silence, pure love ya?

catharsis

2009-07-27T03:50:00.000-07:00

I ate a whole plate of fried oily food.
A fatty treat after a bad day.

c'est la vie

2009-07-23T03:08:00.000-07:00

You smile, you laugh, you cry.
But you know, it's just life (:

2009-07-22T05:02:00.000-07:00

There's no solar eclipse in Sing :(

EMaths is a big screwed up.
My efforts gone down the drain.
And GCE O level listening compre is on the radiooooo.
Symphonay 92.4 FM.
If they played the music any longer,
I'll certainly be sound asleep. (yawns)

2009-07-18T09:58:00.000-07:00

When I was waiting for bus at bukit batok interchange today,
I started noticing this guy from far.
A tall guy dressed in white.
As he was walking, he was frantically checking his attire.
And i thought, it's so juehao.
Guess what, it's really him.
And my first reaction was, text her! (:

You say you don't want.
Then leave everything for me to die?
Asshole.
Sorry for the vulgar language but,
Fuck you.

2009-07-17T06:42:00.000-07:00

It's easier to go down a hill than up it,
'cos the scenery is much better at the top (:

2009-07-17T00:09:00.000-07:00

I flunked my chinese ct.
First time in history.
I guessed i'm just not a language person ):

I feel stupid.
I want to yell and scream and shout at someone.
Yet I can't bring myself to do so.

For science mentorship, I'm like doing it solo.
From the first round of selection to the final end report.
I need to do 9 pages of report from scratch.
Furthermore, I have to record logbook and everything.
AND always get pangseh.
With a dozen excuses.
They are not commited.
Leaving me to struggle and panic.
Chunni deserves it yeah?

chin up

2009-07-16T06:24:00.000-07:00

I was reminded of two movies i watched ages ago.

and

Sky of love and The girl who leapt through time.
I love the latter one.

What if I started missing you again?

2009-07-15T03:55:00.000-07:00

Oh yeah I never grow talller!
It's not fairrrrrrr :(
Stuck at this height.

sweetheart(;

2009-07-15T03:36:00.002-07:00

jasmine \ weird, huh? says:
even if you are just beside me, i still miss you chen chun ni!

As-telle(: says:
awww how sweettt
yeah i understand.
i got too much charisma what
can't help it ;)

jasmine \ weird, huh? says:
YEAAAA like the hitler lor.
'how can you be so heartless'~

As-telle(: says:
I am NOT heartless
i am so ♥full (:

on cloud nine

2009-07-15T02:09:00.001-07:00

I screwed up my oral.
But well, I'm berry glad that everything's over!
I can finally speak englishhhh :D

I'm certain that I will be overwhelmed by fatigue one day.
There's forever too many things, and too little time.
You see, it is never easy to be chunni.
Nonetheless, i love chunni ttm! (:
And those who continuously supported me.

screwed.

2009-07-12T06:16:00.000-07:00

I'm taking capsules, panadol, woods, strepsils intensively now.
Got a real bad sore throat and a big fat ulcer.
And I have my chinese o level oral this wednesday.
Hope i recover fast,
But even if I don't, who cares.

As-telle(: says:
I dislike chi now. and i'm not gonna care.
serious.

wei rong says:
but your chinese born to be good what.

As-telle(: says:
used to.

I don't know what happened to me.
I lost my total interest for chinese.
And i'm gonna pay a high price for it, for sure.

The only thing bothering me now is,
The drowsiness after taking those medication.
And the pile of undone work left on my table..

life's a bitch

2009-07-09T08:06:00.000-07:00

I'm back blogging.
'Cos I finally had my internet connections.
And I'm cursing at every single thing now.
I don't feel like coming home.
All I am capable of is to end up quarrelling with my parents.
My sis told me, “Stop acting like a bitch, like the whole family owes you!”

But seriously, I can't take it anymore.
My house renovation was just about to end.
Yet my parents are considering for other new renovations!
Like fuck.
I had enough of that stupid paint odour and the mess in my house! >:(

2009-07-03T06:28:00.000-07:00

Life is short but human lives long.
Life is vulnerable but human stays strong.
--

Every second counts,
'Cos there's no second try.
So live like you're never living twice.

updates

2009-07-01T03:22:00.000-07:00

#1 Chunni's house is under renovation now.
Everything is in a huge huge mess.
And I have to eat 2 full weeks of outside food.
Since my mom can't use the kitchen now.

#2 Chunni is still sitting at her original seat.
However her partner become Jeremy Teng.
It's okay and quite fun seating with him(:
But I miss Almas tooooo:(

#3 There is this career guidance thingy during assembly period today.
Almas and Chunni chose air stewardess.
And we both agreed that air stewardess need to be good looking!
We went crazy laughing at this.

#4 Chunni miss CH lessons:(

#5 Chunni is berry berry busy.
And gonna fall sick soooooon.

End.

2009-06-28T07:06:00.000-07:00

Natural ways to treat insomnia (summarised):
1) Meditate for 15 minutes before going to bed.
2) Do a small prayer to reduce stress
3) As far as possible, go to bed by 10p.m. (fairly impossible)
4) Have king-size breakfast, medium-sized lunch, and small dinner.
5) Listen to calm soothing music
6) Drink lots of water (BEFORE 6p.m.)
7) Exercise regularly.
8) Soak feet in warm water
9) Read chunni's blog (you probably fall asleep halfway through:)

I read an article saying one needs only 7 minutes to fall asleep.
However I took hoursssss ):

-http://www.relishinglife.com/6/natural-ways-to-treat-insomnia/

2009-06-28T06:46:00.000-07:00

School is reopening tomorrow.
I'm so not looking forward.
This june was hell.
And for sure, the following months will be worse.
I just hope I have more time with my studies.
And less time worrying and struggling with SMP.

Gambateh! :D

Colours tell.
This post is grey (:

2009-06-27T05:30:00.000-07:00

Chunni have insomnia.
Lie on the bed the whole night,
Unable to fall asleep..

Perhaps she was too elated.
When she received a good night text from him.
Or when they become friends again.
Whatever it is, saturdays are good days(:

80% of americans love blue.
LOL:D

2009-06-26T08:52:00.000-07:00

Chunni is biting her towel now.
'Cos she is TOO hungry.
She wants mac or ice-cream or pizza hut now!

Good night <3

2009-06-25T23:08:00.000-07:00

Fucktard.
Why are 2 people trying and struggling with a 5-people project?
Wtf.

2009-06-24T01:55:00.000-07:00

Chunni is ecstatic and excited with her new mission!
Which is, (i won't be so stupid and write it here :P)
Might be tough, but hope i can succeed! (:

2009-06-24T01:23:00.000-07:00

I'm searching through my primary school photos trying to find someone.
But I only found photos from primary 3 and above!
What about primary 1 and 2?!
OMfG.

BUT I knew Eezul got it.
I can ask for it when school reopen! :D
However I realised, only photos from P5 onwards got names written in the lower portion! >.<
Which means, my chance of finding him is minimised again ):

2009-06-23T08:49:00.000-07:00

Can't stand some asshole people 'harassing' me.
Fuck off!

2009-06-21T08:25:00.000-07:00

Today was a tiringggg day.
But had fun with my girls at vivo.
Especially with Benits and Jas(:
Fab!

However, I'm pissed with almas.
She neglected me.
How dare she! :D

Feels like standing on top of the world (:

Oops I guess I was a little too high and expressive today.
But who cares (;

2009-06-20T05:06:00.001-07:00

I always say how I don't need you
But it's always gonna come right back to this.

Your confession, or my ignorance?
Which set us apart.

2009-06-16T21:31:00.000-07:00

I swear if blogger ever dies on me again,
I'm switching over to livejournal.

And 'working' is no fun :<

2009-06-16T08:13:00.000-07:00

Song of the day: Best of me - Daniel Powter
You know I'm hoping you'll sing along,
Though it's not your favourite song.

Why do you want to tell me?

Random stuffs.

2009-06-14T08:09:00.000-07:00

Song of the day: Bad day - David Powter
1) Chunni was exhausted after a day of workout and aimless shopping.

2) Chunni thinks that weekdays are bad days, and
Weekends are good days (:

3) Chunni realised that everybody has a story to tell.
Everyone is a stranger before knowing them.
The world is so big, yet so small.

4) Chunni wants to take a flight off singapore.
Running away.
Escape this urban world.
And go to somewhere that nobody knows me.
Or rather, somewhere where there is no one else.
Life would be easy, and carefree.

And if you were able to bring another person along,
WHO would you bring? :)

2009-06-10T21:33:00.001-07:00

I'm unhappy with that Kahleong.
Pangseh me for 3 times this week.
He's so gonna watch out. :P

I'm bored and tired and hungry now.
I am waiting for lunch time to be over so I can go have my lunch.

And it doesn't feel that bad having lunch alone.:)

A note of appreciation.

2009-06-08T09:41:00.000-07:00

Thank you those who continuously supported, encouraged and spurred me on.
Without all these, I don't know how I can carry on.
I need to know that there are people out there, who care.

Thank you Jasmine (L)
That email really...yeah.
Thank you for understanding me.
Thank you for all the efforts you put in, to make my life easier.
I really really REALLY appreciate it.

Also for those who are incessantly giving negative comments and trying to bring me down,
Sorry guys, but I don't need that!
Think about it first, can you do the same as me?
I doubt so. :)

2009-06-05T21:40:00.000-07:00

They are trying to overthrow me.
But I'll be standing firm.

I know you guys are not happy with me.
I heard far too much.
But what do you expect me to do?
You think I could step down and say, "Hey I don't want to be that!" ?

Whenever I said something,
You guys just assume that I'm no good,
I'm just acting some big ass.
BUT WHY will I do that for!

You guys just close your eyes, close your ears,
NOT willing to accept me.
Then how am I able to prove to you?
Can you open your eyes, open your ears, open your HEART.
Let me show you what I'm capable of?

Before you make any comments, please ponder and consider again.
There must be a reason behind it!
And in the end, all these remarks came back to me.

There is not a PLEADING message.
I will NOT beg and plead you all.
That will only show that I'm weak.

BUT let's cooperate and give our all.
Either for NDP, next year thinking day, or PNA gold.
If not, we will go nowhere.

It took me a lot of courage to post it.
SO the least you should do is take it as a joke.

2009-06-03T04:48:00.000-07:00

My dad was f shocked at the amount of taxes he'd to pay to the government this year.
They charged like, 20% of the chargeable income!

Later I get lesser allowances how >:(
Haha.

OMG there'll height and weight when school reopen right!
I ate a lotttttt these days.
The more I eat, the hungrier I get :/

So guys, stop postponing our trip to gym!

2009-06-02T06:18:00.000-07:00

OMFG.
Kah leong just dropped me a BIG GOOD news.
Allen and him can't make it for SMP tmrw.
SO how should we I die?

cos wednesdays are bad days.

2009-06-02T05:55:00.000-07:00

ARGH I can't log into my google apps account! >:(
And I'm dreading wednesdays.
How I hope there's only 6 days a week.
After tuesday will jump to thursday.
WOAH fat dream.

(HAHAHA I've been trying hard to make that elephant look thinner)

Keep track.

2009-05-31T07:48:00.001-07:00

(ignore this)
Things to be done this June

Projects:

Biology project
Maths project
Geog project
CH project

Mentorship;

Chinese mentorship (to be completed by 8 june)
Science (2 FULL weeks attachment)

Homejoy:

English comprehension x 2 (hongkah and broadrick)
Maths (Ace learning)
CH essay (email)
Geog WB (Exercise 9.1 to 9.5)
Chem MYE
Physics WB (3A 3B 3C)
Physics WS (kinematics and forces)

~~Events~~ Remedials/Happenings

1st June
8am to 10 am: Bio
10.30am to 12pm: Maths
12pm to 2pm: Exco meeting cum lunch
2pm to 4pm: HMT
3rd June
8am to 11am: Just one earth seminar
12pm to 1pm: Bio
2pm to 6pm: SMP :(:(:(
4th June
8am to 10.30am: HMT
9am to 5pm: CCA
5th June
8am to 11am: HMT
6.30pm to 9pm: Campfire @ RV

Basically, first week is gone.
So are my second and third.

Please remind or correct me if I miss out anything.
Just in case.

BUT don't stalk me!

2009-05-31T07:19:00.000-07:00

Had my shopping spree at orchard yesterday.
I bought manyyyy things,
Including my dress (;

Shopping and sleeping are the best damn things I live for :D

Went JE lib this morning for chinese mentorship.
Spent one hour eating Mac and the rest of the day feeling miserable.
And Vivian say mac fries took 3 days to be digested.
Yuck, NO more mac from now!

2009-05-28T05:05:00.000-07:00

Brought my sec1 girls to Bishan HQ today.
Stood for 2 hours on the train.
But never had such a chance to relax and reflect.

Looking at them, I was reminded of the time when I was sec one.
Those days seem like yesterday, yet so far away.

Live your story
Faith, hope and glory.

2009-05-26T05:08:00.000-07:00

Today was a bad day.
Everything went out of plan.
I'm all messed and freaked out.

Even when the days get too hard,
I know I've to move on..

Don't shed another tear.

2009-05-25T02:45:00.000-07:00

I din know my insensitivity will hurt others.
I din know I am making a comparison.
But..do you guys ever wonder why I said those words?

It's my fault i know.
Thank you for telling me,
This is better than hearing from other people.
And well, it shows that you all care :D

Gotta stay strong.

2009-05-23T08:40:00.000-07:00

I gotta keep trying.
I gotta prove to everyone that I am capable.

We will do something great.
We will make history.

'Cos hey no one is going to break my stride! :D

2009-05-22T05:05:00.000-07:00

It's totally unbelievable.
It just seems so unreal.
No one really expect me to be in that position.
Not even me, I swear.
I never ever even dream of being Company Leader!
I'm like, "Ms Faith, did you make any mistake?"
It just can't be me!

Everything happened too quickly.
I wanted to ask Ms Faith if I could swop positions with Azalea.
But, I don't have the courage to..
In the end, the only words that came out was,
"Thank you for giving me this opportunity, I will make sure I do a good job."

No matter what, that are all facts now.
I must fulfil what I promised in my speech.
And not let those who supported me down.
I must have confidence in myself.
I must give my best!
GO CHUNNI, you can do it.

I feel like crying.
Too happy, you might guess.
Perhaps just the other way round.

2009-05-21T05:19:00.000-07:00

I'm in one of those shittiest mood now.
Yet Mrs Philip's scolding and lecture seem to cheer me up a little.
And hey, I realised i'm very alike with Mrs Philip!

I will get pissed for the slightest thing, the slightest distraction.
I expect work to be done effectively and efficiently,
And instructions to be obeyed.
Well..like a perfectionist?
Probably.

Nonetheless, I would just treat her as one of my role models.
Haha.

Tomorrow we should be getting back our results slip.
And be announced of who are in the exco for cca.
Aww I can't help but feel nervous.
Tomorrow will be a great turning point ya? :)

Sometimes I am just not as strong as you guys thought of me.
Facade.

2009-05-20T07:49:00.000-07:00

What’s the f problem with me?
What’s the problem with you all?!

Is it the first day your guys know me?
Know that I’m always this fierce and aggressive and demanding and whatever?!
Must I apologise for EVERY single thing I do?
What do you expect me to do!

Fine, I’ll CHANGE.
Change to someone you guys won’t recognise anymore.
I will stay out of everything, keep my ass shut and see how right things should have been.

2009-05-20T04:46:00.000-07:00

I like wednesdays to be over.
It will be a great relief for me.
No losing sleep, no insomnia.

I want to own a bridal store!
So I can try out gowns every single day.
Hahaha.

2009-05-18T05:28:00.000-07:00

I hate people who break their promises.
I hate people who lie.
Yet I am one myself.

Dui bi qi.
Xian zai xiang qi lai, wo jiu de ji zi hen guo fen.
I'm sorry.

Aw so hard to express in chinese.

2009-05-17T04:57:00.000-07:00

“Ones best success comes after their greatest disappointments.”
-Henry Ward Beecher

And,
"You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think."

SO never give up.

I like talking sense into people :D