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so sleep alone tonight
CHUNNI:) 12 Nov ♥ myself Every second counts, cos there is no second try. So live like you're never living twice. - If today was your last day |
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(ignore this)Things to be done this June Projects:
Mentorship;
Homejoy:
Basically, first week is gone. Please remind or correct me if I miss out anything. BUT don't stalk me! Had my shopping spree at orchard yesterday. I bought manyyyy things, Including my dress (; Shopping and sleeping are the best damn things I live for :D Went JE lib this morning for chinese mentorship. Spent one hour eating Mac and the rest of the day feeling miserable. And Vivian say mac fries took 3 days to be digested. Yuck, NO more mac from now! Brought my sec1 girls to Bishan HQ today. Stood for 2 hours on the train. But never had such a chance to relax and reflect. Looking at them, I was reminded of the time when I was sec one. Those days seem like yesterday, yet so far away.   Live your story Faith, hope and glory. Today was a bad day. Everything went out of plan. I'm all messed and freaked out. Even when the days get too hard, I know I've to move on.. Don't shed another tear. I din know my insensitivity will hurt others. I din know I am making a comparison. But..do you guys ever wonder why I said those words? It's my fault i know. Thank you for telling me, This is better than hearing from other people. And well, it shows that you all care :D Gotta stay strong.
I gotta keep trying.I gotta prove to everyone that I am capable. We will do something great. We will make history. 'Cos hey no one is going to break my stride! :D It's totally unbelievable. It just seems so unreal. No one really expect me to be in that position. Not even me, I swear. I never ever even dream of being Company Leader! I'm like, "Ms Faith, did you make any mistake?" It just can't be me! Everything happened too quickly. I wanted to ask Ms Faith if I could swop positions with Azalea. But, I don't have the courage to.. In the end, the only words that came out was, "Thank you for giving me this opportunity, I will make sure I do a good job." No matter what, that are all facts now. I must fulfil what I promised in my speech. And not let those who supported me down. I must have confidence in myself. I must give my best! GO CHUNNI, you can do it. I feel like crying. Too happy, you might guess. Perhaps just the other way round.  I'm in one of those shittiest mood now. Yet Mrs Philip's scolding and lecture seem to cheer me up a little. And hey, I realised i'm very alike with Mrs Philip! I will get pissed for the slightest thing, the slightest distraction. I expect work to be done effectively and efficiently, And instructions to be obeyed. Well..like a perfectionist? Probably. Nonetheless, I would just treat her as one of my role models. Haha. Tomorrow we should be getting back our results slip. And be announced of who are in the exco for cca. Aww I can't help but feel nervous. Tomorrow will be a great turning point ya? :) Sometimes I am just not as strong as you guys thought of me. Facade. What’s the f problem with me? What’s the problem with you all?! Is it the first day your guys know me? Know that I’m always this fierce and aggressive and demanding and whatever?! Must I apologise for EVERY single thing I do? What do you expect me to do! Fine, I’ll CHANGE. Change to someone you guys won’t recognise anymore. I will stay out of everything, keep my ass shut and see how right things should have been. I like wednesdays to be over. It will be a great relief for me. No losing sleep, no insomnia. I want to own a bridal store! So I can try out gowns every single day. Hahaha.  I hate people who break their promises. I hate people who lie. Yet I am one myself. Dui bi qi. Xian zai xiang qi lai, wo jiu de ji zi hen guo fen. I'm sorry. Aw so hard to express in chinese. “Ones best success comes after their greatest disappointments.” -Henry Ward Beecher And, "You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think." SO never give up. I like talking sense into people :D Feel like dying now. So sick. Don't wanna come school tomorrow :(  See no evil, hear no evil, speak no evil. I hate liars. Pants on fire. I feel like crying. Don't bully me. Hey just one question. Should I unlock my blog?  Forgive me for saying this but, I really don't like silver medals. I'll be more upset getting that. But it doesn't matter anymore. At least we had fun and it was a good game today! SO chunni, learn to be contented. You don't expect everything to be perfect, And the world to revolve around you. -- Was it something i said, Or something I never did? I don't want to talk to you. Hey. I don't like the feeling i'm feeling now :/ Yesterday was my payback day, like what Jasmine said. Got back 2A1s. Totally brightened my day. But today was not. All Bs and Cs. I counted. I have 2As, 4 Bs and 2C6 now. Just hope social studies will be something good? Tomorrow is games day. Hope we have fun Rest well everyone. :D Can't beat my, can't beat my, no you can't beat my class three five.. * Poker face tone. For H1N8 only. Um let's have another 2 weeks of group study first. And see if we could study effectively and NOT talk so much. Cos Kahleong and me felt that it wasn't really helping, us. So yeah, if we can't, we might quit. Then the rest will take over or well, H1N8 get dismissed? Aw quite sad huh :S Got back phys bio emaths amaths and mt paper 1 today. Phys and bio were total disappointments. What hurts most was when Mrs Ng asked me what happened to my results, And told me I was ACTUALLY a bright student. Then, I couldn't hold back my tears anymore. (I was trying to play coool and not be bother by results. But guess i just couldn't do so.) I'm getting over those results already. But didn't know how to annouce it to my parents. Should I just keep in suspense until Meet-the-parent session? Hope I will score well for the remaining papers. I have to. You guys too:) *remember to pray! ;-) Outing ' 11 May 2009
Outing 11 May 09 Under the rain(:  Clumsiness.   Picnic!    Group photos!     Cuties under th umbrella (:    Supermen and women! :D --  Estelle and Louie ♥ Yay i'm so looking forward to tmrw's picnic! We gonna have lotsa fun! Of course :D Anyway it's 10am @ JE interchange bus 51 there. Par invitez only! (; Maybe.
"Maybe I could have loved you better.Maybe you should have loved me more. Maybe our hearts were just next in line. Maybe everything breaks sometime." Maybe you're just not the right one. Went town after biology today. Window shopping at far east plaza, And watched 17 again at the cathay. I need to save money, To buy lotsa things :D Exam's over. And life's getting boring. I want to go out. Any plan guys? (: I don't feeel like mugging. I want to PLAYYYYYYYY! :( 4 more dayssss. They only get you into troubles. And leave you in the lurch, to rescue yourself. Naive. I like Ms Ng. I don't want Mrs Yeo.  
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